Waiting for him

I don't know who he is.  I don't know what he looks like.  I just know I'm waiting for him.  I'm making sure I'm dedicated to and abiding in God so I can be prepared for him.  I know that there are point where I failed as a wife and mother.  Those points have had to heal and be fixed in me.  Growth is even when you think you're doing your best, there is still something wrong.  That doesn't mean you were the problem.  That doesn't mean you were perfect either.  I know I'm not perfect.  I will still be the best woman, wife, and mother I can be.  I hope and pray that he's healing also.  That he's growing in God and grace.  That's he's where he and God want him to be when we meet.  I wait patiently for him.  It's easy to be desparate.  It's easy to be lonely.  It's hard to see the alone time as a time for growth and change.  But it's time needed so you're the right person for the right person.